Friday dance! Yas! YAASSS!!! Even though it means I have a long day ahead of me since I have my painting workshop tonight! And amazeballs I have 8 people! That's huge for me right now!
I've gone from having sometimes 20 people and doing 2 classes a week, to either canceling events or having one or 2 people. I've been SUPER frustrated.
Something what frustrates me more is the dissonance between marketing and allowing. I've struggled to lean into the belief that if you do something of value, the right people will be drawn to that. That you shouldn't have to kill yourself trying to attract your people.
Marketing teaches you that you do have to work yourself, it feels like to death, posting twice a day, emailing once a week, replying to comments, creating new content, AND still feel like creating new art.
I firmly believe art is created for the sake of creating art, so creating so I have things to sell or things that WILL sell....they just don't fit. I find myself in that argument in my head quite often.
Still, I'm glad it's Friday! I can chose to have gratitude for the super cool 8 people painting with me tonight. Gratitude for the things on my "to do" list this weekend.
and gratitude for this outlet keeping me semi-sane.
Holding compassionate space