I forgot. Again. And I have to laugh, because my mantra "Take a deep breath and forgive yourself everything" comes with an add on: Again and again...sometimes every minute....
But I still forget it. Or I fall back to the habit of not wanting those bad feelings around and struggling against them. Instead of allowing them. Hell! My last blog was about the fact that "bad" happens and from that we find our strengths. I say "bad" of course because that is an opinion. Nothing is inherently bad, we just assign meaning to it. These are really things we don't want....like feeling lonely.
Something I saw online today made me remember, oh yeah, you're forgetting to allow this. AND that's ok!! I get trapped in not feeling like I'm doing enough, then I pile on that I shouldn't feel that way, I need to be positive, why am I here again, etc...
My shoulders drooped and relaxed, because I didn't have to carry that load anymore. I can FEEL any way I need to, then let it go. Indeed you HAVE to let it go. It will likely come back up or circle around, and I need to acknowledge it when it does or parts of myself will feel rejected, but I don't have to get stuck in believing that is what is real or ALL I am. I, we as humans, are so much more. That's what makes us so amazing!
I am reminding myself, yet again, that this is a practice, NOT a destination and that I can rejoice in the fact that I am still part of that cycle.
Rinse and repeat!